Exibitionist Instict? Hahaha.... xP

DYED MY HAIR!! AHHHH... lolz...
Kidding lah... it turned out ok.... my hair is 3 shades lighter now, and my bro says that I look like an intellectually endowed gangster...

Actually I didnt meant it to turn out so light... ah well... lolz... the things that battlenet can do to draw your attention away from more "mundane" things... haha
Like you hair...
and then.... *poof* (an angel choir is heard from X kilometres away singing)
Your hair turns lighter then it should be...

Now its DEFINATELY obvious that I dyed my hair... haha...
No more "Hey its black wad!" or... "I think I can see your color more clearly if you stand in this position"...

To all the color disfuntionalists out there, no worries! coz my hair would be tooo bright for you to not notice the change...
Take out the sunglasses peepz!
Its SUMMER TIME!!

haha...

Anwayz... my godsista was wrote in one of her latest blog entries that blogspot.com should be changed to bitchspot.com, coz there are so many people bitching about other people on their blogs...
Sigh.. its a sad fact... but true.. when people use blogs as open advertisments to bitch about people...
one very good example would be http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com which is (for God knows why) one of the most popular blogs in Singapore...

I am going to put one more important news value that attracts people : Bitching

Oh.. and if you're thinking what I think you're thinking.... yes... Sex sells.. and it is officially a news value...

but not bitching yet...

This an excerpt from the person who has been ka-chiaw-ing my God-sis and making her piss off...

"Before you start thinking that i'm some kinda ah soh who loves gossiping about untrue rumors in the market, I need to clarify this.. I only bother bitching about people who

1) act cute

2) act cute

3) act cute."

ooh.. "I hate people who act cute" nia... LOLzzz.... I presume that she is very cute herself isit? ^_-

Since she only bitch about people who act cute, I'll take up that policy for this very entry, and blog about HER...

She should take a peek at my class and she'll suddenly feeel that she is so un-cute...

OK.. this is the first bit....

the second bit REALLY pissed me off..

What's wrong with most young Christians nowadays? When I say young, I mean people who just accepted Christ, who are still new in the world of Christianity. All you can see in their blogs are thank you phrases attributed to our Lord Jesus. It's really ok to be pious, I just don understand why people write it all over their blog when they DO NOT behave or speak in that manner?! Is it a new trend now? I know I ought to be happy that another person in this world is saved, but should I be happy when people go to church merely to make frens, to show that "I'm a Christian too and I know it's cool!"
God, help me!
"Father Lord, thank you for your mercy that you have on us. Forgiving us when we have sinned. Father, I put my trust in you and trust in all your plans for me. Amen."
Why do people need to pray out loud in their blog like this??
Showing more people means that the chances of God answering to your prayers are higher?
*wonders*

btw.. she is referring to my godsista....

If that bi-atch really reads this entry, take heart madame, I'm bitching about you now becoz you bitched about MY GODSIS...
how could you even think of bitching a person who has over a hundred people visiting her blog?...
when you have less then 10?.... you're lucky my godsista is not da type for revenge... or you're soo dead...

F.Y.I. - A blog is an online diary of events happening in a person's life. Be it public or private, it is relatively uncontrollable. IF you happen to have anything you dont like about another person's life, take it with a pinch of salt, and nobody else will hantam you back.

anywayz.. back to why i hate that entry.

First, Christians are NOT perfect, unlike what many people presume or stereotype us to be. We are only perfect because Christ came an took away our imperfection.

Second, what is the definition of a matured Christian? One that has complete trust and belief in Christ, being sure that He is the centre of his or her life?

Well then, if this is the defination, then it leads to question 3
Then why shouldn we blog about Christ on our blogs? Our blogs reveal our thoughts and feelings, so if we blog about Jesus on our blog, it only goes to show that He is centrally of importance in our lives.
Prayer is part of our daily walk with Christ, and prayer is our way of talking to Him, if you think that we do it as part of "exibitionist" instinct, then let me tell you something.
Why do you blog?
Exibitionist?
Why do you bitch?
Exibitionist?
Why do you post up act-cute photos in your blog?
Exibitionist.

My godsista, and many others who post their prayers, and deepest feelings on their blogs, are much stronger then people who just blurt our their point of view without even analysing the reasons carefully.

Call me a bi-atch... but ah well..

I am an entity of anger as well.. sometimes..........

Dying fire.... Dying confidence...

And I'll follow You there...

To the place where we meet...

And I'll lay down my pride...

As You search me again...

Your unfailing love over me... again...

-extract from "Your Unfailing Love" - Hillsongs

Sigh... I feel I've failed God so many times...
I dont even think I deserve any more good things from Him sometimes....
Falling into temptation, neglecting Him...

I'm falling away again... but I don't want to... I really don't want to...

I watch as my friends grow into maturity in Christ...
and I watch as some other friends backslided into the world again...

Pains me as I watched my fire burned and die out... watch it burn itself out...
Slowly dying..... I dont want it to fade away...
Into obscurity....

Anywayz... sigh.. hope God can forgive me for all the things I've let him down recently..

Have been really slacking around and doing nothing much..... I feel so empty and discontinued inside...
Sometimes I wonder if some people are put on earth to make the earth a more boring place... I feel that I bore people sometime...

Though I may seem extrovert most of the time, in truth, I am also an introvert... a person who wants to be alone sometimes...
but I need friends... because... friends make me feel like I'm wanted on this earth...
And I try to make my friends feel good also...

I would highlight any good point that I come across in their lives and drone about it until they get it drilled in their head... so that they can boost their self confidence...
something that is lacking in alot of people nowadays...

But sometimes... it is at the expense of my own.... it hurts when people reject you...




My blog frequency has been reduced to less then a 100 everyday...
Yesterday was only 40... it feels kinda terrible... I used to have more people reading...

See.. i bore people....

sigh...
I love people... but somehow I got a feeling people dont love me....

Mental Breakdown...

I'm starting to wonder if the actions I do and the abilities I have are paranormal...

Since young, I have been able to control my dreams... Good or bad, I cannot decide, but I can control anything that happens in the dreams to my own advantage or mood...
If I am very tired, I usually sit back as an invisible figure and watch the dream(s) flash by...
If I am curious, I would explore and do things like a small kid...

My mind thinks differently in many ways as well...

I could command myself to forget something, (if its not so important), and INSTANTLY forget it, permernently until somebody or something reminds me again....
One example is today, which actually happened quite a couple of times already...

I was holding a tissue paper in my hand, and it was soaked with sweat... (eww.... coz it was an extremely hot day)... There wasn't any dustbins nearby, so I just made myself forget that I was every holding a tissue paper... And thus, for the next TWO and the HALF HOURS I walked around Orchard Road with that tissue paper in my hand...
erpz.. tell me about forgetful...

And I'm startin to get worried about it too...
Though I am pretty good at music, having the ability to play a song after hearing it once or twice... I CANNOT memorize most songs untill I've sang or played it like 10+ times... which is terribly bad for a normal human being..

I realized this when my class when for K-Boxes visits, and on today's occasion, PartyWorld...
I knew many songs, almost all the songs they were singing, HOWEVER, I could not sing them as I just did not know how to sing them... in a wierd way..
Bad bad bad bad.... I cant even memorize songs lyrics...

Sigh...
Anywayz.. The chalet response seems slow.. very slow... so sad... want to cry le...
My church friends are going anywayz...
Maybe 10 peepz would be enough for a small chalet...

sobz...

An old man and his dog =)

An old man and his dog were walking along a country road, enjoying the
scenery, when it suddenly occurred to the man that he had died. He
remembered dying, and realized, too, that the dog had been dead for many
years. He wondered where the road would lead them, and continued onward.

After a while, they came to a high, white stone wall along one side of
the road. It looked like fine marble. At the top of a long hill, it was
broken by a tall, white arch that gleamed in the sunlight. When he was
standing before it, he saw a magnificent gate in the arch that looked
like mother of pearl, and the street that led to the gate looked like
pure gold. He was pleased that he had finally arrived at heaven, and the
man and his dog walked toward the gate. As he got closer, he saw someone
sitting at a beautifully carved desk off to one side.

When he was close enough, he called out, "Excuse me, but is this
heaven?"

"Yes, it is, sir," the man answered.

"Wow! Would you happen to have some water?" the man asked.

"Of course, sir. Come right in, and I'll have some ice water brought
right up." The gatekeeper gestured to his rear, and the huge gate began
to open.

"I assume my friend can come in..." the man said, gesturing toward his
dog.

But the reply was, "I'm sorry, sir, but we don't accept pets."

The man thought about it, then thanked the gatekeeper, turned back
toward the road, and continued in the direction he had been going. After
another long walk, he reached the top of another long hill, and he came
to a dirt road which led through a farm gate. There was no fence, and it
looked as if the gate had never been closed, as grass had grown up
around it. As he approached the gate, he saw a man just inside, sitting
in the shade of a tree in a rickety old chair, reading a book. "Excuse
me!" he called to the reader. "Do you have any water?"

"Yeah, sure, there's a pump over there," the man said, pointing to a
place that couldn't be seen from outside the gate. "Come on in and make
yourself at home."

"How about my friend here?" the traveler gestured to the dog.

"He's welcome too, and there's a bowl by the pump," he said. They walked
through the gate and, sure enough, there was an old-fashioned hand pump
with a dipper hanging on it and a bowl next to it on the ground. The man
filled the bowl for his dog, and then took a long drink himself.

When both were satisfied, he and the dog walked back toward the man, who
was sitting under the tree waiting for them, and asked, "What do you
call this place?" the traveler asked.

"This is heaven," was the answer.

"Well, that's confusing," the traveler said. "It certainly doesn't look
like heaven, and there's another man down the road who said that place
was heaven."

"Oh, you mean the place with the gold street and pearly gates?"

"Yes, it was beautiful."

"Nope. That's hell."

"Doesn't it offend you for them to use the name of heaven like that?"

"No. I can see how you might think so, but it actually saves us a lot of
time. They screen out the people who are willing to leave their best
friends behind."

Author Unknown

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CHALET LOCATION ! =D

MY CHALET LOCATION IS UP!! =D

Peepz look-see!!!

Chalet Location : Costa Sands Resort (Sentosa)

Arrival Date : Sunday, 01-May-2005

Departure Date : Tuesday, 03-May-2005

Booking Number : R0410D3E4

Check in : 2:30 PM Sunday

Check out : 10:30 AM Tuesday

Please come please come!!! xP
I think like over 20 peepz are coming already!! so cool! haha....

hope more people from my class can come =D

Two Positions and a Competition

sigh... nothing much to post... life is getting pretty boring...
Cant wait for the chalet...

Just got a call from Esther (my Gen12ii mission leader) that Calvin would'nt be able to make it for the mission trip itself... So I'll be taking over his postition as Logistic I/C on top of being the photographer and reporter.. lolz

swell.. lolz... (no.. really... I'm quite happy to take up this postition coz I've got like nothign to do at all =D)

So far about 10 + people I know are going for the chalet, excluding my church friends, that would run up to... 20+ people...
WEE!! haha.... and best of all, my kor and didi will get to meet my church friends too =D

Lolz.. sekarli they know each other.. lolz..

I've just gotta make myself more useful this holiday... So I went to join Pansonic's MDA Digital Film Fiesta along with my friend (AleXieee) who works in the media industry to come up with a short movie.. lolz
I hope we'll be granted use of SP's Digital Media Studio.... or I'll be like really screwed.. coz thats all I have ta offer becoz he's the one with most of the skills around...

Meeting him on friday to brainstorm for ideas for the short story...
He's a reaaaaally sweet guy.. lolz... ah well... he's attached... not surprisingly.. lolz!

I am like SO lazy to go down to the gym that I amaze myself sometimes.... I like get into a bad mood everytime I look in to the mirror but I don wan to do anything about it...

It is like damm stupid lor... Sigh.. who ask gah-ment dont want to build any swimming pool in the CBD area... duh.. haha..
And the gyms are like hell expensive as executives and expats are the one patrolling the fitness arena...

Boom.. so here I am... getting lighter and lighter as the day goes by.... I can die...
(btw... the reason why I'm getting lighter is because I'm losing muscle mass. Muscle mass gets converted into fat mass. My body's metabolism rate is ultra-high. See?)


I think I'm going to fail my NAPFA in my third year... Most likely i'll ace everything and FAIL at 2.4km again... -_-'

Well... I really dunno what ta do...

Back to typing out my action songs for Gen12ii...

Chalets + Missions! = HOliday

Busy busy busy... I'm sooo busy.. haha! =D

My chalet is coming up! Cant wait.. lolz... xP

There are soo many people who are going to turn up already... So far, from my class, May and Timothy and Sharina are coming... =D yaaay!
Wish more people could come! =D

Alot of other people would be coming too! hahaha... we're going to have SOOO much fun...

*wish wish wish wish* My best birthday wish would be that many many people would come to my chalet! haha... though its pretty short sighted.. lolz


My mission trip draws near... (*blinks with anticipation)
haha! A few more weeks and I'll be going to help out at a student centre where I'll learn how to interact with the students over there as well as spread the Good News!

I'll be staying at a place called "The Third Place" which is fully air conditioned and has proper facilities! =D
And my team mates are pretty cool tool!
Met up with them today... everybody was their usual bouncy self... except Joyce... she seemed stress or something...
She jus wasnt her usual self... ah well...


The dates are all rushing towards my face.... but i'm still feelin great as ever =D
if not for the fact that I haven collected my mission fund completely yet.. arrgh!
but.... Still cool..

Wonder what I should buy for the bbq for my chalet.. ahhh!! excited excited!!